Sayonara

I am trying to get a bunch done this aftertoon - and spend a good day with the kids, because I am flying to New York very early tomorrow morning. I will be in NY for a few days with my fabulous friend Nara and then I am going to my friend Jocelyn's wedding. A few years ago I announced that I planned on taking off once a year for a week myself - and that Ariel was more than welcome to do the same if he wanted. It was not so much to get away from home as it was that I really like to travel, and going anywhere with a big family is really expensive. A little over a year ago I visited friends in Berlin and Poland, and next year I have my eye on a volunteer vacation in Asia. The kids are now old enough that I no longer feel like my arm is aching when I am away from them, but it is still very hard. I am fine until a few hours before the flight and I start crying, convinced that someone is going to die before I get back.
Ariel is glad that I am leaving while the kids are asleep this time, as the kids are a little bothered when their Mother has a breakdown in front of me. Ariel is going to take the week off work to hang out with the kids, and I know he will do a fabulous job. I only worry about someone dying - and a little bit about who is going to do the girl's hair. I appreciate so much having the freedom to go off every once in awhile, and I know that Ar is going to be very worn out by the time I get back.